Writing as a HO, first poster :)

*blink & just like that

I'm going into the 7th week of surgical posting! wohoo, how is that possible? I also have no idea.

Just now, I was driving back home from breakfast, I feel like writing today. There a lot of things going in my mind but I'll try to cramp everything together in one-not-too-long post (hopefully). Let me start from where I left... shall we?

Program Transformasi Minda (PTM)

One word, heaven! I have never thought that I would enjoy PTM that much. PTM Johor was super chill, banyak meals, nice food, meeting new friends, reconnecting with old friends, getting to know some mutuals and many more I just couldn't list it here. Nisha said I have too many connections that every time I meet someone I'll say, "Oh... so you kenal *insert a name*" HAHA It is actually true, but what can I do.... 

some familiar faces during PTM Johor. Most of them I rarely/never talk to dekat IMU but here, too many stories to share 🥹 I hope you guys are doing fine wherever you are.

Let's ignore the part that some (or errr... most of the) talks were boring, unnecessary & unrelatable but it was a good one week 'holiday' before the real hurdle starts. Tips & trick to enjoy PTM, duduk back rows, sit next to your friend. When the talk did not spark interest in you or you're just too lazy to take in anything.... main game! HAHA that was what Nisha & I have been doing. whoops! but we passed the exam okie. I don't know how to describe the joy I had, but for sure, the emotional extrovert in me was super sad that I cried sooooo bad on the last day of PTM.

Meet Pip! my roommate that always hear me ranting & so fun to share my stories with ❤️

Hospital Orientation Week

We had a week of orientation before we start tagging. Basically, during this orientation, you'll know a little bit about everything; daripada sekecil-kecil 'dekat mana lab patho' sehinggalah sebesar-besar benda 'to whom you have to request usg/ct'. Tbh honest, you'll forget 90% of it. HAHA well at least it was for me. The only thing I remember during orientation week is the bonding I had with my fellow HO batchmates. Cewah.... emo pula. The fact that I am able to click with most of them, it feels like home. 

sempat ber-badminton sebelum tagging

2 weeks of Tagging

This was the real deal. The amount of tears I shed during this two weeks were >>>>>> than I've ever had for the past 5 years of medical school. The first two weeks were the worst. Tagging from 7am-10pm is a scam. As a HO, you're expected to come early; 6am like that then balik 10pm tu only on rare days. Sebab most days you can only chaw at 11pm...... Body was exhausted, brain was drained, I have no idea how I did it.

Every 'first time' was a struggle to me. On my first day, kena refer patient to neurosurgery HSAJB? To update onco HSIJB? to go request USG & CT? to take blood stat, to refer medical, to write entry dalam BHT, to do post-Op review, to run ABG, to assist in OT. Semua..... created unnecessary anxiety in me. Awal-awal memang feel like a huge burden but as you do it, it became easier eventually.

Tips numero uno to survive tagging: when in doubt, ASK! I'm thankful that I have incredible seniors to work with. The patience they have JUSTTTT to spare time to teach me & answering my questions...... 🥹🫶🏻 You'll never look dumb, trust me. Or even if you do, at least you're learning. i memang always TANYA, even for the tiny2 little things bcs senior HOs always have tips and tricks to do it efficiently. I memang a bit tak malu, I'm not only asking from my surgical HOs, any HOs yang I jumpa, I akan tanya. Ortho? Medical? Anaest HO dalam OT? SEMUA.

Tips number 2 to survive tagging... get a good support systems; family, partner and friends. For me, I texted my mom every day during tagging. even the smallest "penatnya today." "today is okay" "tak makan lagi dari pagi" to a big topic like getting scolded by my MOs. HAHA Ibu is so supportive, she always know what to say in every situation I'm at. Jimmy? ye, he had to listen to me crying EVERY DAY balik kerja. I called him everyday during my drive back home, which most days I will just cry.... do not even saying a word. hahaha

Last but not least, my friends that deserve more than just a 'bestfriend' title; Nisha, Adi & Fahmy. All of us shared a same storyline, "tak nak Kluang" but we ended up here. God knows how randomly we rant on our horrible days, without judging each other. We acknowledge everyone's struggles and always try our best to lift up each others. Even kadang2 fahmy MIA sbb member emo, need privacy nak healing.... but that's okay hahaha kitorang faham.

this bongsu that needs 24hrs reassurance but i love her

Our normal daily conversation usually start with:

Adi: "harini mmg s*al." 

Fahmy: "harini paling penat. PAC non stop s*al la"

Nisha: "weh aku penat, aku nak nangis. f**k"

But most days, "weh, cane nak request *insert subject" "weh, Dr *** baik tak?" "Siapa oncall?" "dinner ufam lai lai" HAHA

jumpa 5 minit dekat radio pun berborak

Jumpa member dekat OT pun gembira 

Basically, normal days as HO:

Waktu tagging period, I was already physically tired. Tapi I still go dinner with them. hahaha time tu jelah nak sembang & share our experiences. All the random calls, letak notes dekat kereta, park kereta sebelah2 to give some sort of moral support and pergi singgah their wards to pass chocolates/food are a mental therapy for me. I'm glad that I'm doing this with them.  

Housemanship 

When the shift system started, it is so much bearable. If dapat balik on time, memang you have time to rest, to do laundry and go out makan. Seriously. Once you have learned to prioritise your job, you'll be efficient & you'll have more good days than bad days. Maybe it's too early for me to say, but I really enjoy my days at work. Kadang2 when I feel demotivated, I always find someone to talk to. Talking to seniors lagi2 yang dah 5th/6th posters, yang dah married, their views are so different. I started to see a bigger picture of everything. 

Next, show your interest to learn. Even when you have no idea what's going on, just be there and help around. Do not afraid to do new things bcs that's how you learn. When my MOs tanya, "Have you done this? can you do?" My answer usually, "Never. but I want to try.". Kadang2 bila kena marah pun, I sad for the good 10 minutes, then I cam "dah, pape je. I salah (la kot), so takpe HAHA". 

Paling penting every day, find a way to lift up your mood. For me at the moment, it's Niall Horan's The Show playlist while driving to work hehe also, find a motivation to keep you going every day. i always look forward my off day. so i kira, "ok sikit lagi then I boleh rest". take it day by day, bila balik kerja, leave all work related stuff behind. You should rest & start fresh the next morning. I also look forward to see my friends after kerja. Walaupun barai selalunya..... tapi tetaplah jumpa di Ufam..... 🥲

Okay dah penat typing. I shall continue some other days okay. Pape pun, pls wish me luck. Doakan I kurang nangis & kurang anxious in everything I do. hahahaha

Adios.

Life update 2023

wow surprise surprise. I'm writing again

It has been a wild ride. the last time i posted something here was 2017. It was..... >5 years ago. throughout the years, a lot has changed. Including.... my boyfriend 😂 (which is recently upgraded to a fiancé! hehe)

Banyak benda to update. Mainly for the sake of memories. I have nothing to flex but at the same time super grateful for everything that I've imagined (for the past 5 years) slowly becoming a reality to me. Alhamdulillah

To cut story short, I finished my study in October 2022, graduated in Nov the same year. My graduation day was everything I dreamt about. It was also emotional as I bid goodbye to my friends in medical school. Sad.... I was not anticipating this. 6 years (1 year foundation + 5 years degree) went off too quick. I spent 3 and a half year in Bukit Jalil, 2 years in Seremban and 6 months in Kluang. I made friends, explored new things and learnt a lot definitely. Shoutout to my trio, Una & Teha for making it more memorable. I guess you girls deserve another seperate post. If i rajin la HAHA

with my osce buddies

the cliche 'throwing mortarboard' pose ><

Next, I got engaged. 22 1 23

Please notice the date. I purposely choose that date and lucky enough it was just a day after Sara's engagement. How funny, we ended up tunang one day after another. It was not planned but it was beautifully written, begituuu. My engagement ceremony was small, intimate & simple as how I wanted it to be. My fiancé is someone I am super in love with, caring, responsible & everything I need as a partner. Please make du'a for us, for our journey to marriage to be eased. Ameen

flexing our rings hihi

Lets skip the part of me being unemployed for 5 months! HAHA because honestly, I did nothing other than re-learn my French via duolingo, hanging out with my friends, spending as much time as I have with my family and of course..... qada' my sleep! 

Recently, in April 2023, I got my housemanship placement. This is another experience that I should blogggg. Pendek cerita, it didnt go as planned. But InshaaAllah it is for the best. So I will start working soon! yo girl is a real doctor now..... hihihi wish me luck ok! I'm so excited for this new phase in life. Something I look forward since my teenage age, and now time to hustle & give it my all! 

I guess that's all for now. Till next time!

#SarAzyOnVacay

5 hari penuh bermakna. 4-8 August 2017, it was my second time in Singapore.

Singapore is such a beautiful country. Benda paling obvious and yang paling buat azy dan Sara excited & amazed adalah transportation dekat sana.

Bermula dengan 'skytrain' yang kitorang naik untuk pergi ke Terminal 3 dari Terminal 1 sampai lah bas yang dekat Malaysia pun kitorang taknaik tapi dekat Singapore macam excited gila naik bas. OMG😂 Azy impressed tapi cover lagi lah kan. Tapi guys, Sara takleh sorok teruja dia. Hahaha Aha (Sara's cousin) pun malu kot bawak kitorang berdua jalan jalan sana. But who cares? Hoho

Sara 'focus' dengar explanation Aha
but we still end up sesat

First day, sempat je sesat dekat Tampines sebab naik bas yang salah arah. Muka masing masing cool je walaupun taktahu hala tuju. Me and Sara dalam bas tu be like, "Takpe weh, jalan je mana mana." Lagi lagi dekat sana memang ada pathway untuk pejalan kaki, so nak jalan takde la cuak sangat.

@ Wild Wild Wet

Second day was lit 🔥 We went to Wild Wild Wet, kind of themepark centu la. I'm not a fan of all those 'air air' thingy, taksuka basah, tapi trip kali ni kena pergi gak sebab Sara dah warning awal awal dia nak pergi themepark and azy wajib pergi gak. Awal awal cam cuak gak la tengok slide tinggi tinggi dekat situ, tapi bila sekali dah cuba, best gila! Terus bersemangat cuba semua. Okay whoever follow my snapchat akan tahu how excited i was on that day. 

Ikea mirror selfie with babygirl 

Tapi lepas pergi themepark tu derita gakla. Apa tak nya, limpinggggg! Nanges guys nanges 😂😭 Limping limping pun sempat gak tawaf IKEA kejap petang tu, lepastu malam macam nak mati dah. Lewlz kaki cam nak tercabut. Itulah padan muka diri sendiri kan, dekat themepark seronok tak ingat dunia hahahaha Malam tu lepas dinner terus hilang mood nak buat apa apa. Dari pinggang sampai tapak kaki sakit ya Allah, tuhan je yang tahu. Sakit sakit centu pun Sara sempat je bahan 😐 "Sakit ke Azy? Dah lama tak bersukan?" Hmmm k sara k

Visiting museum is just...💜

Day 3 was so special. Started with pagi tu kitorang pergi National Museum Singapore sehingga lah petang tu kitorang join Grand Opening 'Our Tempines Hub' and sambutan singapore national day dekat Tempines Hub. Haritu jugak first time in a lifetime azy tengok band performance liveeee!! Auch, excited terlebih lagi 😂 Itu sebenarnya band sekolah Aha, azy tumpang bangga gak ah. Aha main saxophone 🎷 kotttt, Azy satu alat muzik pun jangan harap lah reti main. Grand opening Our Tempines Hub tu gempak gila, lagi lagi ada persembahan Taufik Batisah. Auch, walaupun Sara ketawakan azy waktu azy kata, "Taufik pandang aku do", tapi takpe, biasalah tu Sara jealous *fliphair

Sempat gak la jadi 'Singaporean' kejap. Lol, fe feeling country sendiri waktu dekat sana. Siap kibar bendera singapore, tengok PM singapore lagi, hoho. Dekat Malaysia pun taksemangat macam tu. Okay next time nak kene semangat gak ni dekat Malaysia, tanah tumpahnya darahku. Aicewah hehe

with Aha @ SEA Aquarium Singapore

Hari keempat pun menarik gak, sebab aunty and uncle Sara bawak kitorang pergi SEA Aquarium. Pergi melawat ikan ikan dekat situ (since azy kenal 'ikan keli' dan 'ikan kembung' je selama ni). Dapat gak experience sentuh starfish dekat situ. After lunch we went to Bugis Street untuk beli souvenir. Takde apa sangat pun, hahaha sebab taktahu nak beli apa untuk siapa. 

Last day, baru rasa macam "Ala sayangnya nak tinggalkan singapore, tapi nak balik Malaysia gakkk!" Oh, drama hahahaha Pagi pagi tu bangun awal, packing barang yang sangat lah banyak. Apa taknya, souvenir lagi, baju kotor lagi. Mula mula cuak gak sebab beg overweight tapi nasib baik la dekat airport sana tak strict sangat so lepaslah hehe. Mengharapkan flight delay demi menghabiskan data internet 15gb yang kitorang ada since first day dekat sana, namun semua itu mimpi. Hahaha flight tak delay sangat pun cehh membazir data. 

@ Changi Airport

Kitorang selamat sampai KLIA2 tengah hari and straight to rumah Amel for lunch. Memang terbaik sangat sebab azy memang lapar gila dari dalam flight hoho Tambah 4 kali kot Spaghetti apatah yang amel sediakan tu. Sampai Amel pun tanya, "Ajon, dekat Singapore kau takmakan ke?" Hahahahaha Okay sorry Mel. Btw thankyou sooo much for the food yummy yummyyyy!

Azy takde rasa pun nak tulis entry ni panjang panjang lolz (sebab malas) tapi dah panjang omg Okay cukuplah tu yang lain azy simpan dalam hati jelah. Hahaha

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Terima kasih Acu Bon, Acu Man, Aha and Ain for the warm hospitality! Azy wont forget you guys for sureeeee! See you when i see you. And azy loveeeess you guys sooo much. Dah rasa macam family sendiri ♡♥ And Sara, jangan lupa banyak lagi bucketlists kita, hehe next time okay, baby! You know how much i love you and glad to know that after this we gonna talk about 'patient, diseases and medications' together! Yeay!

with Sara Baby 💛

Thanks for your time! Bye!

FiS Semester 3; full of emotions

Alhamdulillah, my foundation semester 3 was great!

Bermula awal sem3 dengan 'bersetuju' jadi secretary Muslim Society- (waktu ni tak expect akan banyak kerja. hahaha ingatkan biasa biasa je), sampailah final week semester 3 yang penuh mencabar sebab bulan puasa.

Kalau nak cerita semua, banyak sangat. Jadi apa yang terlintas dekat fikiran azy je, azy tulis malam ni. Hehe Cukup lah untuk azy 'throwback' di hari hari tua nanti. Aicewah 

First thing first, semester 3 ni lah baru mula nak explore Sri Petaling (yes guys, azy tahu nampak noob but at least i've started!) Baru tahu Murni dekat mana after makan dengan senior, baru tahu 'madina', baru tahu sushi mentai dan baru tahu dekat sri p banyak je tempat makan. Terima kasih Husna, Ammar, Aatiq, Amirul serta rakan rakan azy yang lain, yang selalu onzzzz je bila azy ajak keluar makan or lepak mamak. You guys are awesome! hehe

Mr Dakgalbi for the first time with Husna, Ammar and Aatiq

Jadi person in charge untuk Finale Night Orientation adalah satu benda yang azy takpernah terfikir pun. Alhamdulillah, everything went well. Paling best bila dapat opportunity to get closer with all my batchmates. You guys will be missed!

My Finale Night Squad! Goodjob guys

Part next ni kene 'cut long story short'. Taktahu la pendek mana azy boleh tulis tapi azy cuba pendekkan. Hehe Sem 3 ni azy start active dengan society. Mula mula ingatkan senang je jadi secretary rupanya taksemudah yang disangka. Pernah je rasa nak stop sebab taklarat sangat. Tapi macam biasalah itu semua emosi, kene tenangkan diri dulu and then sambung semula kerja. Baaanyak sangat benda baru azy experience dari mula buat proposal hinggalah kene jumpa orang orang atasan untuk selesaikan semua perkara. Kalau cerita dekat sini pun, semua takkan faham. So lets not-waste-time and proceed to the next point :p 

Me, Jimmy and Kak Ainaa during Grand Iftar 2017

Thank God i have such a supportive and understanding president. Like most of the tasks dia takkan biar azy buat sorang even he has the right to do so :') Korbankan sem break untuk uruskan hal society. Yang tenangkan azy bila azy gelabah sangat sebab banyak kerja, yang paling sabar bila tengah2 discuss lepastu azy reply, "Sabar jap, nanti azy reply. Azy nak fikir jap. Pening kepala." *bluetick lol, (tapi senanya azy tidur sambil nangis hehe), yang akan sentiasa memastikan azy 'terjaga' untuk siapkan semua kerja, oh ya dan yang sentiasa paksa azy supaya study before and during eos supaya dia takrasa bersalah kalau apa apa perkara buruk berlaku kat azy related to my study nanti :p Okay takleh panjang sangat part ni hehe

Yess, waktu semester 3 ni jugak lah first time experienced puasa Ramadan dekat IMU. Tarawih dekat vista C. That struggle untuk jalan kaki hari hari after maghrib dari vista B ke surau vista C, tuhan sahaja yang tahu. Haha penat memang penat tapi bila hari hari macam tu, dah jadi routine. So takde masalah sangat. Sampai kalau ada hari yang takpergi rasa macam 'kosong' lak

Oh ya, part berbuka puasa. Hari hari memang akan start fikir 'Harini nak buka apa, dekat mana?' dari pagi. Awal cemana pun azy start fikir, biasanya memang dapat jawapan satu jam sebelum waktu berbuka :p Biasanya memang end up makan dekat restoran area lrt sg besi tu je. lulzzz Big applause to Husna yang paling sabar teman azy berbuka puasa hari hari, yang selalu ikut tekak azy nak makan apa. Walaupun kene ketawa dengan dia sebab azy menangis takdapat iftar burger king, but itssss ookkkaaayyy una. As long as you teman i makan, i relakan aje kene ketawa *emoji mata ke atas

My all-time fav makan partner

Benda benda lain yang dah 'unlocked' waktu sem 3 ni termasuklah:

• Dah reti dah lepak library bila ada masa free. Dulu asyik nak balik vista je Hahaha
• Dah selalu duduk pbl untuk siapkan assignments and study, kadang-kadang taksempat balik vista, stay terus sampai lewat malam. Kalau dulu semua benda buat dalam bilik dekat vista je
• Dah start ah ngada ngada beli coffee before kelas, eleh kalau dulu takpernah heran pun pasal coffee hahahaha aduh #howtojimat?
• Dan banyak lagi benda benda 'bodoh' yang korang akan ketawakan azy kalau azy tulis kat sini hahaha nanti ah lainkali ah 'kalau' azy ingat azy cerita lullzzz

Okay azy rasa dah cukup panjang ni.

Thankyou everyone yang ada through thick and thin❤. Semua yang keep on supporting me during my ups and downs. Semua yang bagi nasihat yang sangat bermakna. Semua nama takmampu azy nak sebut satu satu. Ramai sangat. Azy taktahu nak balas jasa baik anda semua. May Allah grant you with His countless blessings.

Taklupa jugak, housemates yang takpernah penat kejut azy sahur setiap hari (sebab diorang tahu azy tidur lewat and 'sangat jarang' terjaga sendiri for sahur hehe), yang sentiasa ready shoulders for me to cry on #cengeng dan sentiasa tunjuk sokongan dengan apa apa sahaja events yang muslim society buat, dengan alasan "Demi Azy. Support Azy." I'm so touched :') Especially Kaksya and Jia, yang selalu ingatkan Azy untuk makan dan rehat, walaupun hakikatnya azy memang skip makan dan 'terlupa' badan kene rehat most of the time. Heeee thankyou Jia, Kaksya.

Alhamdulillah, apa yang azy harapkan dan azy impikan, azy dah one step closer #HelloMBBS hehe. Lepas ni for sure lagi banyak cabaran yang azy akan hadapi. Tapi azy rasa lega sikit sebab azy tahu ada ramai yang azy boleh count on. I wonder how you guys can be so kind?! #cry

InshaaAllah, looking forward to more and more adventuressss in the future. Thankyou for your time!

Happy faces of not-a-foundation student anymore hehe

Spread Your Love 4.0💕

This is something new. Before this azy selalu join community service tapi biasanya melibatkan kanak kanak. Kalau paling besar pun, sekolah menengah. Tapi kali ni, azy pergi Rumah Orang Tua Tua Al-Ikhlas, Puchong.

Awal awal memang seram. Rasa macam cuak pun ada, sebab azy takbiasa nak 'deal' dengan orang tua tua. Sampai je sana, waktu briefing Kak Linda bagi azy dah seram dah. Hahaha risau jugak, banyak 'rules and regulations' yang kene consider bila nak interact dengan penghuni rumah tu.

Sedia maklumlaa, orang orang tua ni sensitive dia lain sikit. Oh, jangan salah sangka. I'm totally okay with that, cuma yang azy takut kalau kalau azy yang salah action dekat sana. So bila dah distribute tugas, group azy was assigned to clean the house compound. Kiranya tak involve 'kerja kerja dalam rumah'. I'm a bit relief at that time😅

Muka excited dengar cerita

Tapi bila semua dah settle bersihkan kawasan rumah tu, azy pun masuk laa join group lain yang tengah berborak dengan pakcik makcik dekat sana. Haha azy sampai je dekat diorang, taksempat nak duduk perkenalkan diri pun, makcik dekat situ terus tegur, "Setiap kali yang datang melawat, mesti ada sorang yang kecikkkk sangat. Budak-budak." WHAT?!?! BUDAK BUDAK? hahahahaha aduhh, kecil sangat ke azy ni? 😂I take it as a compliment tho. Hahahaha pendek cerita conversation dengan makcik2 dekat sana is more to 'dengar-je-apa-diorang-cakap' punya session. Well, diorang takde sesiapa nak cerita semua tu kan. I enjoyed their story dooo hahahaha

Part paling best bila one of that makcik asked me to sing. OMGGG I'll never do this in public tapi demi nak happy kan diorang, i did it 😓 They requested 'cinta muka buku' by Najwa Latif. Hahahahaha itu kira okay gaissss, sebab awal awal makcik tu suruh i nyanyi lagu saloma. OMG celah mana nak nyanyi, melodi pun taktahu hahahaha

Pakcik ni paling sempoi, trust me. Haha

Even though azy takdapat peluang nak interact directly dengan semua penghuni rumah tu (potong kuku, sikat rambut, suapkan makan dan lain lain), tapi azy dapat tengok macam mana kawan kawan lain buat. Nampak semua muka muka future medical practitioner berjaya. Azy nampak Abang Din uruskan sorang pakcik ni dari awal kitorang mula sampai nak makan tengah hari tu baru selesai. Peh, boeklah.

Paling happy bila azan start main gitar and semua 'sing along'. Mula mula lagu Kau Ilhamku je. Tapi lepastu ada sorang pakcik ni request lagu Oh Fatimah, ooookkkkk layankan aje. Hahaha Then follow dengan lagu Cant Help Falling In Love, sumbang pun ok jee. Asalkan semua enjoy.

From this visit, banyak benda azy observe. Contohnya, cara cara nak communicate dengan orang yang lagi tua dari kita. Maybe kita rasa kita dah cukup respect diorang, tapi kadang kadang sangkaan kita salah. So kene lah sentiasa perbaiki diri dari semasa ke semasa. Tapi apa yang lebih utama ialah, sayangi orang tua kita. Ibu, ayah dan semua kaum keluarga. Azy touching gila bila Kak Linda kata, "Ingat, doa orang tua itu penting dan makbul." Ohhh, part tu air mata tinggal nak jatuh je. Hahahaha nasib baik sempat cover. Nak hilangkan rasa bersalah, habis program terus balik seremban ah, dah lama takjumpa parents. Hahahahaha acah acah study jauh je jarang balik rumah.

From Left: Golok👦, Kak Ainaa👧, Jimmy👨 and Azy👶

I think that's it. Oh ada sikit lagi. Tiga orang, orang penting untuk program ni deserve an appreciation post jugak. Hahaha last minute kita plan program ni, and we did it! Such a great secretary (Kak Ainaa), managed to settle down everything dari proposal, budgets sampailah ke donation, from A to Z within a week. Big applause to her, Golok and Jimmy too! I feel so blessed to be working with them. They have been a really wonderful partner! Walaupun Jimmy dengan Golok selalu guna kuasa veto diorang nak 'minta tolong' (read: suruh) azy dengan kak ainaa buat apa apa, tapi takpe.🌚 Hahahaha sebab azy 'budak lagi' so takpelah, bantu bantu kakak abang ni hmm tadahal lah! (Kene mintak belanja lagi ni hahahaha)

Banyak lagi event kita nak 'gaduh' lepasni.💞 Hahaha sekarang ni semua busy buat hal masing masing, lama dah taknampak. Sebelum event ni, hari hari jumpa tatap muka sama. 😂 Besar jugak IMU ni sampai susah nak selisih dengan semua orang kahkah

Okaylah, terima kasih untuk semua yang terlibat. dan jumpa lagi untuk event akan datang! Thankyou for your time!

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Food For The Soul 3.0 💖

A successful event deserves a blog post 😋 

Pink Squad💖

(Yes, for those yang "Amende Azy merepek ni?" Choiiii, ni event under Muslim Society (MSOC) and Malay Cultural Society (MCS) IMU. Hahaha kasi chance laaa Azy excited kejap, first time involve dalam event besar macam ni hahahaha)

These few weeks has been such a productive week. Lari sana sini, takmenang tangan buat banyak perkara dalam satu masa. Somehow, i felt like i was living like a superhero (jangan muntah dulu gais)

3weeks before event i was struggling with the proposal. Ohhh this part😭 Berapa kali kene 'revised' proposal sbb banyak program tukar last minute. This is the time where Azy 'biasakan' diri untuk tidur selepas pukul 12 malam. Mula mula ingatkan macam 'few days' je nak tidur lewat, tapi berterusan sampaaaaaaiiii entah, dah takingat. Hahahahaha 'Time for Bed' alert dekat phone pun dah takvalid waktu ni.

Two weeks before event pulak kene settlekan budgets for these event. Time ni laaa baru kenal semua orang orang penting dengan Student Service Hub (SSH). Time ni jugak laa baru azy tahu function SRC. Hahaha selama ni, duduk IMU ni azy tahu bilik bilik lecture dengan pandan Serai je. Taktahu pulak wujudnya office SRC dekat Student Lounge tu. Waktu ni independent lebih sikit laa sebab Tuan President cuti balik kampung hmmm sobsob *yang ni kene mintak belanja lebih ni hahaha* Azy acah-acah berani jelah jumpa semua orang, sebab kalau malu malu nanti siapa pulak nak gerak semua ni kan lol

Kalau nak cerita from A-Z memang takhabis satu malam. Tapi ada satu benda penting Azy nak kene share. Kalau orang lain taknak tahu pun, at least azy tulis dekat sini, supaya satu hari nanti bila azy baca balik post ni azy takkan lupa semua 'orang-orang baik' yang ada dekat sekeliling Azy.

FAST-A-THON

Define LOVE 🙌

Muka baik semua baru habis tahlil. Hahaha

I need this kind of hug forever. Ily kak farah!💋

19April, Rabu. When suddenly air mata azy 'jatuh'. Urgh, ni adalah perkara yang paling azy risau kalau azy stress and takcukup rehat. Azy taktahu nak express feeling, sampai satu saat mampu nangis je. Auch, so cenggeng. I'm so sorry about that. Tapi malam tu, memang azy takboleh tahan. Macam tiba tiba ada satu rasa yang trigger air mata azy jatuh. Peh, dramatik sangat ayat ni. Hahahaha Tapi betul lah.

Azy menangis itu takpenting. Hahahaha yang penting adalah semua orang yang give me hugs and support at that time. Kak Damia, Kak Farah, Kak Ainaa dan ramai lagi waktu tu. How to describe eh? TAPI DIORANG SEMUA BAIK GILAAAA DENGAN AZY. Siap malam tu lepas preparation untuk event, diorang ws azy bagi kata kata semangat. Aduhhh, lagilah touching hahahahaha. Azy macam taktahu nak balas kebaikan diorang dengan apa. Diorang setiap masa layaaaan je perangai kanak kanak azy, blur blur azy sebab banyak benda azy takfaham. And azy selalu fikir, "Dalam hati diorang mesti selalu cakap, 'Alaaa noob nya azy ni'" Lol hahahahaha Tapi who cares? Azy tetap sayang diorang hahahaha 💙

From left: Azy, Kak Damia and Jimmy

Sampai satu masa azy rasa macam, "Ya Allah, taklaratnya nak handle semua ni" Tapi azy selalu fikir balik, senior azy lagi banyak benda nak kene buat. Azy baru sikit dah penat. Paling azy fikir adalah president Azy. (Ohhh tolonglah Jimmy takbaca post ni *facepalm) Busy Jimmy MashaaAllah, azy pun taktahu nak cakap macam mana. (eh tapi tetap takboleh kalahkan prof azizi lah haha) Tapi Jimmy still ada masa nak uruskan semua perkara society ni. Sampai kadang kadang azy fikir, "Jimmy ni ada 3 otak ke sampai boleh fikir banyak perkara. Dia ada 30jam sehari ke sampai semua benda dia boleh buat?" Hahahahahaha Test setiap minggu takpayah cakap laa. Kadang kadang kesian tapi mampu ketawa jelah hahahaha jkjk

Okay, taknak cerita panjang panjang lagi sbb memang dah panjang. Hahahaha nanti azy akan post lagi satu 'sequel' for these event ---> Spread Your Love 4.0 

To cut long story short, I'm sooo thankful to have such amazing people around me. They are all awesome! Semua committee baru dan lama MSOC and MCS, semua yang membantu menjayakan event ni, terima kasih sangat sangat untuk semua tunjuk ajar dan nasihat. I'm looking forward for more events with you guys in the future!

Thank you for your time!

The most loving and supportive senior I've ever met! Ily kak aisyah!💗

With the models for Hijab Fashion Show. I'm the 'tallest' one in the photo, yes ikr huhu

What if this is the last?

It just simply a sudden thought.

Somehow kita terlupa nothing lasts forever in this world. We tend to take things for granted sebab kita terlalu yakin kita 'masih ada masa' nak rectify semua perkara. Kita rasa 'nanti nantilah' aku cakap terima kasih dan 'lainkalilah' aku hargai dia.

Kalau bertuah, untunglah masih ada masa. Kalau tidak, bila kita nak cari 'masa' tu? Kalau pun ada, mungkin pada waktu tu kita masih 'nanti nantilah'.

Untuk aku, aku cuba praktikkan 'sentiasa tinggalkan dengan baik'. Tinggalkan itu bukan konteks meninggal dunia (its too extreme but who knows?), tapi more to 'tinggal jejak dengan yang baik baik'. Sebab apa? Mana tahu 'sampai masa', kita nak orang ingat kita dengan apa?

Contoh paling mudah dan senang, whatsapp. Apa yang kita reply. Azy selalu fikir, "if this is the last time i text her/him, in what ways she/he will remember me?". Tipulah kalau sesiapa pergi tinggalkan kita, kita takcuba cari kenangan apa yang kita ada dengan dia. Its like baik ke buruk ke mesti cari jugak. Meskipun ada yang buruk, at least "last time i text her, i already appriciate her. I already tell her that shes pretty and ilove her." 🌸 ((girls kind of friendship 😂))

Even takrapat macam mana pun, bagi Azy i have to respond in a very good manners. Kalau rapat give them something to comfort them. Who knows when you're not here anymore, they'll keep all your words and be the reasons for them to smile everyday?

Paling utama, apa yang kita buat untuk orang sekeliling kita. Family, housemates, classmates dan semua. Masa yang kita ada untuk mereka mungkin takbanyak, jadi bila tiba 'sekejap' tu kita guna sepenuhnya. Kalau call, apa pesanan atau kata kata terakhir yang kita boleh bagitahu mereka? Buat perkara yang mampu buat mereka tertawa pabila ketiadaan kita.

Theres a lot of things to say about this. Azy dekat sini bukan nak suruh semua baca apa yang azy rasa, tapi at least boleh jadi 'initiator' untuk semua mula berfikir. Macam post ni jugak, kalau ini yang terakhir azy tulis, Azy harap mampu bagi manfaat dekat yang lain. Kalau takbanyak, sikit pun jadilah.

Semua mungkin ada pandangan yang lain lain.

Terpulang. Spread kindness and speak good! Lets make the world a better place to live and may Allah bless everyone of us ❤️